Thursday, October 9, 2008

Rain or Shine

I should not be so hard on myself all the time. I should be happy.
Rain or Shine.
I have been acting super duper sad lately, when I should be super duper happy.
I just realized I have a beautiful outlook on life, and that in itself is something to be thankful for.

side note:
it makes me kinda sad though that only one person reads my blogs. its kinda like writing in a diary, and only letting one friend read it.

back to first note:
this always passes, but it doesn't seem like it ever will when its actually going on.

my biggest problem right now is the fact that I need to have more faith in humankind.
its terribly hard nowadays though.
all politicians are corrupt in some way or another.
people kills and steal from eachother.
families fall apart every seconds.
a mile from where you are right now, a child is being abused by the one person that they should be able to trust. and nobody knows.

take a look around people.
find something you can help, and do something.
don't sit around anymore.
take 50 cents every day or so and put it in a jar, and when you fill up the jar, help someone.

I am a highly materialistic person, but my more than half of my heart will always want to help people.
and I am going to do that.

well, half day tomorrow.
dress shopping for homecoming
TB shot
maybe gym
maybe JHS vs. KHS football game


Friday, October 3, 2008

I can't help

I'm pretty sure one of the worst things you could possibly experience in life is watch your mother lie on the floor, sobbing uncontrolably. And not be able to do anything about it.
Real Estate is terrible. Even the richest agents can't sell anything.
Nobody is buying.
Because nobody has money.

Well she's looking for another job. But she's sick, just got over pneumonia and now has a really really bad cold.
I wish so badly I could change something. Anything. To help.

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Sarah Palin

When asked what newspapers and magazines she reads, she simply answers "all of them"

So Sarah Palin, you sit down every day, and read every newspaper and magazine?
Is that in the world?
Or just the United States?
Either way, you must be some kind of super hero!

Please God, help this country recover.
Because one thing is sure.
She can't.

I had never heard Biden speak until tonight.
I like him alot.

Change We Can Believe In

Push and Pull

I cannot handle the constant motion.

I always want to do what I know isn't right. And its not like I really regret things. In fact, I tend to just brush them under the rug, and never pull it up again.
I can never make sense of my thoughts. They rush around too fast. Its like I'm standing in a big room trying to grab hold of humming birds.
I'm pretty sure that is the only way I could possibly describe it for myself

I put a ton of weight on my own shoulders. Its slightly psychotic I guess.
Its like I want to be alone. And its ridiculous. Because I don't want to be alone.
But at the same time, I like the peace and calm of independence.

My eyes are blurry, its late, and my muscles ache.
So Goodnight.
Sweet Dreams World.